I am having one of those days. You know...where I keep telling myself everything that's wrong with me. This is the dialog that keeps going over and over in my head this morning...
"You can't get it together." "What's wrong with you? You can't wear any of your clothes and look nice!" "Everyone else can lose weight. You just aren't strong enough." "Loser!!!"
Ugh! This kind of talks brings me down....
I'm taking this class called "Soul Restoration". One of the main points of the class is the importance of telling the TRUTH to ourselves. Now I know that everything I've been telling myself is false. I know that. But it's so easy to fall into this trap isn't it? Why is it so hard to give ourselves a pat on the back and so easy for us to be mean and cruel?
We are supposed to weigh at Noon today for our Biggest Loser Challenge at the gym. I know my husband has a loss...a pretty good one. But me? Maybe another pound...maybe. I am sooo proud and happy for Dave yet frustrated. He eats so differently than me yet continues to melt away. Yes, I am frustrated.
I think what makes me the maddest is that I DID lose 15 pounds last spring. I was on the top of the world...then I ate my way back. Same old story.
I'm not giving up. No, that's not my style. Instead I will make a few new goals for the week to re-energize me and get me back on the path.